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Friday 28 November 2014

Our Sonata (Chapter 1)



There is no need to reason with yourself when it comes to your absolute decision. I stand by this principle, word by word of it. I keep my reasons to myself and it shall remain that way. But, it wasn’t until he came into my life, breaking the principle I stood on for so many years. His presence opened my mind, he made me stand out where I never thought I could and most of all opening my heart to changes.
I used to think that I stand alone in this world. I may have hundreds of individuals around me but they never really know the true me and how fake my life was. I didn’t have anyone to talk to and to be open with. My parents might as well hand me over to an orphanage. The lives they lived ruined me; they were the infamous Yakuza clan within the entire Shizuoka prefecture and I am their daughter; the unfortunate heiress. They care for me but there is no love; so I grew cold. Whenever there was someone who wanted to be close to me, they kept asking the same question. ‘Why are you so cold?’ and their usual comments would be, ‘No one is going to befriend you if you’re this cold! What a Tsundere! ’I never wanted to reason with myself but they never stayed long enough for me to open up.
He was the only one that stayed.
I am in love with playing the piano because playing it was the only form of connection between me and mom. To me, she seemed like a different person when she played the piano. She looked peaceful and lovely; not the usual stone-cold and aloof persona she portrayed every time. She taught me to play and I enjoyed the moment we shared. I considered becoming a professional pianist once so that mom would be proud of me but, in the end it became only a consideration. I stopped playing when my mom died. It was untimely. I was given a slot for a piano solo in my school annual mini-concert and I can still remember the excitement of wanting to tell her. That however never happened. She died in a mafia raid. I became more broken then.
Only after he came into my life I started to play again.
For years after that I have been trained; as expected from an heiress for my parents’ legacy and I must say there were times I had considered to end my life but I trudge along and the drive was the people, my subordinates who look up to me. I didn’t want to disappoint them.
He was one of them.

This is the story of how my life has changed and it was all thanks to him.

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